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After the disaster that was the start of my month i got back
into action 3 days ago. I have only played Heads up and have done really well.
On day 1 i played a ton of hands ranging at ½ and 2/4 with a couple of matches
against some real bad players at 3/6 and 5/10. The terrible players were
playing short at 3/6 and 5/10 so i didn’t mind taking a shot and busted them
both. I was a steady all day and ended up winning about $2400 which i was
really happy with. I played really well and kept my focus throughout each match.

Yesterday i 2 tabled against a guy on Stars who seemed
really bad but ended up being decent. I bluffed way too much against him early
and dropped $1200 to him but clawed my way back. He gave me no respect and all
so i adjusted well to get back into the match. We were playing really fast and
stacking off with marginal stacks was fine in the match. I got coolered on 2
big pots against him also which saw me get pretty angry at 1 point but i just
kept at. I ended up losing about 2 buyins to him but think i played pretty well
for the last ¾ of the match. I then played some other randoms and beat them all
to finish the day up about $400.

Today i played in the Absolute $530 tournament and played 1
table of heads up at the same time. I was absolutely crushing some guy at 2/4
and was up around $1300 when the deck hit him in the face and bent me
over.  I lost a couple of hundred to him
but beat everyone else that sit against me. After around 800 hands or so i had
won $750. In the meantime i was chipping away in the tourney without getting
any hands of importance. I managed to hang around till the bubbled and ended up
busting pretty deep (but not deep enough) for a payout of around $1k. I was free
rolling in the event as Absolute paid for my entry due to some VIP promotion
they were having so i ended up the day +1650 or so.

So the last 3 days have gone quite well and i am pretty
happy with the way i played even though i feel i have run badly for the most
part. This leaves me at roughly +3800 for the month after only playing for 4
days. I am going to play a ton of hands in the next few days so hopefully i can
put some big numbers up.

Tomorrow i will be playing in the Stars Sunday Million, the
$322 FTOPS NLH event and the T6 250k event. Basically i am going to use the $1k
from today’s tourney cash to play these 3 events and possibly parlay it into a
bigger payout. They start a couple of hours apart so as long as i am in 2
events i will also play a heads up table at the same time. Let’s hope i run
good and luck box my way into a deep finish.

I am starting this blog to keep myself accountable for my
play. I always seem to find myself easily dominating the 1/2 6 max and HU
action online these days. I have a problem though. I play great for the most
part but lose my mind at times. Today was a perfect example. I start off
playing HU on 2 diff tables. After 90 hands I have busted 3 different players
and am $ 680. I then decide to move over to 6 max and fire up 6 tables.

I start off sloppy where I miss every flop and have my cbets picked off so I find
myself quickly down about $200 in the 6 max games. I then get it all in on a
567 board with 2 spades with QsQh only to see villain turn over 43ss having my
in bad shape. This player was limp calling a lot preflop a lot and with stats
of 52/12 I was isolating him a lot as I had immediate position on him. He was
passive but I had seen him cr with a draw before. He insta shoved over my flop
cbet in this pot and I just couldn\’t lay my queens down to him. I am still not
sure whether I should have.

I am pretty fairly well but becoming increasingly frustrated with the way the
session is going. I am being sucked out on in some smallish pots which aren’t
bothering me that much but it is adding up. I find myself down about 3 BI\’s at
the 6 max games when I pick up AK in the BB. The button opens and the SB calls
so I squeeze, only to see the button fold at the sb call. I bet $45 into a $58
pot on an AJ8 rainbow flop and he insta calls then insta checks the turn when
the 8 repeats.  There is $148 in the pot
and he has $132 behind. I want to extract value from worse A’s to make up for
the times he has me beat so I decide to bet $65 on the turn leaving him with
$67 left on the river and obviously committed to calling my river shove with
most of his range. He insta calls again. When the Q hits the river I am
absolutely sick when he insta pushes his $67 into the $278 pot. I don’t really
beat much here and AQ, AJ, 9T and any 8 have now got there but I simply can’t
fold into a pot this big with my hand so I throw up a little and call. He shows
me AQ.

I am now stuck about $800 in 6 max and tilt off another buy
in with some bad play. At my lowest point I was stuck $1050 in 6 max but I
started to play really well. I knew that I hadn’t played too bad for the most
part and was just running badly and not getting into good spots. I had some
weak players at my tables so decided to power on. 600 hands later I had won
back almost $1000 and was ready to take a break.

I didn’t. That is when all hell broke loose. I don’t know
exactly what it was but something just clicked. It may have been that I worked
so hard, focussed and played so good to get back 5 buyins after having a really
tough start to the session. I am sure I was really tired and mentally drained.
So anyway I start tangling with some loosey goosey players and made some
boneheads play against them where I forced the action. Tilting pretty badly I
opened up some HU tables too and just throw money away. I ended up being stuck
$1128 on the day after being +680 or so. That kind of swing in a day for me is
pretty ridiculous and there is no excuse for it. I played really good poker
while I was facing adversity for about 1500 hands and then threw it all away in
my last 350 hands. The graph is just sickening and I will post it when I work
out how.

What to take from this? This is a problem I have had a lot
of trouble with. I need to take regular breaks to avoid this kind of thing. I
lose myself in the twig light zone sometimes when I lose focus. I am going to
limit my sessions for 500 hands. I will then sit out for about 15 mins where I
will leave the room. I think that will help refocus me and refresh my mind. This
blog will help me do that because writing about sessions like todays is really
a painful experience. In fact I couldn’t bring myself to post any hands during
my ‘incident’ because they are so ridiculous it makes me sick

Tomorrow is another day…